Sunday, January 1, 2012
2011 - It's a Wrap
2011 - Be Gone With Ye! What am I saying? It wasn't that bad. It wasn't bad at all. It had some rough patches but every year does.
For Jules 2011 is also going to be embedded in our memories as the year his brain tumor finally woke up. After six years of monitoring, we'd begun to let ourselves hope that maybe it was just going to stay asleep - like - FOREVER. But it didn't. Puberty startled it awake. The last trip to the House Clinic and St. Vincent's Hospital in Los Angeles was a traumatic one.
Below is a pic I snapped of Jules heading down the hospital hallway with Jeff. I remember being struck by the image of the two of them together; by how tall Jules was compared to the early days of the tumor, when he was but Jasper's age and oh-so-tiny. But somehow, as I watched them walk away from me all I could see was how small and fragile he still seemed. And really, how small and fragile his daddy looked, too. Because that's how we feel as parents when faced with something like this: small and fragile and vulnerable and helpless - no matter how big and strong we appear on the outside.
So 2012 will be the year we finally rid ourselves of the brain tumor. It's a relief - but also a bit overwhelming, as you can probably imagine. We head back to Los Angeles in April, and then surgery will probably happen in May. It'll just be the three of us making the trip - being away from the other kids for something so intense will be difficult, but we're confident this is the group of doctors we want operating on our son.